i wish i were witty...

contridictions @ 2009-11-02T08:04:00

2009-11-02T16:04:27Z

Meow

xoxo

2009-02-14T23:03:30Z

kisses from d and me.

hope everyone is having a lovely valentines.
<3

:)

2008-12-15T20:56:05Z

if youre ever feeling depressed and blah about your life go get lady gaga's cd and play it over and over and over.
everytime me and d listen to it...it always makes us get up and dance and be happy.
so put it in and dance!

contridictions @ 2008-10-04T21:26:00

2008-10-05T04:27:59Z

my phone is off.
i just don't think i can talk right now.

amy, let's get these thoughts in order.

contridictions @ 2008-09-28T20:40:00

2008-09-29T03:40:37Z

i miss having someone around to love me.
what a lonely life ive somehow fallen into.

bravo self.
bravo.

falling

2008-09-15T05:55:04Z

falling.
falling.

mondays were made for starting over.

attn:

2008-05-25T19:28:33Z

my phone is lame.
and is no longer recieving or sending texts.
hell, it's probably skipping out on phonecalls too.
this is day three of all of this.

i've never felt so lonely.
now isnt that sad.

i'm sorry:

2008-03-15T23:42:13Z

i'm sorry for all the things i've said.
i'm sorry for all the things i've thought and haven't said.
i'm sorry for all the things i've written about you just to get them out of my head.
i'm sorry.

it's just that sometimes i start and i just can't make myself stop.

new plan:

2008-03-09T21:19:26Z

let's go to england and party it up at the generator hostel for $31 a night and $1.50 drinks.

airfare: $1175
hostel: $31.15/night

i can only go for a week though.
sad. well, unless i can get steph to cover for me for a weekend or two.
and then we could just travel around and stay in differnt hostels and have mucho fun.
yes?
yes.

who wants to:

2008-03-09T20:52:19Z

go to bonnaroo music and arts festival with me june 12-15th in manchester, tn.
airfare: $330
tickets: $209.50

lineup:

Pearl Jam
Metallica
Jack Johnson
Kanye West
Robert Plant and Alison Krauss featuring T Bone Burnett
Phil Lesh & Friends
My Morning Jacket
The Allman Brothers Band
The Raconteurs
Willie Nelson
Death Cab for Cutie
B.B. King
Sigur Ros
Levon Helm and the Ramble on the Road
Ben Folds
O.A.R.
The Bluegrass Allstars
M.I.A.
Umphrey's McGee
Iron & Wine
Yonder Mountain String Band
The Swell Season
Talib Kweli
Derek Trucks & Susan Tedeschi Soul Stew Revival

yeah.
we should go.
come on come on come on.
i feel like flying somewhere.

contridictions @ 2008-02-03T00:34:00

2008-02-03T08:34:36Z

im just sorry that i suck beng a friend to you alll.
erin. im sorrry i suck.
nbrandi im sorry i sick.
liz im sorey i couldnt make it.
laylea im sorry we never habg out.

so.
to veryone.
dont expect anything out o fme.
because im lane.
and am scared to get oitand get with you all or soe quyality time.
i miss youm
i hope yoy havnt ofrgeoten me.
i havent forgotten you<3

contridictions @ 2008-02-02T15:51:00

2008-02-02T23:51:55Z

lol i should go outside once in awhile.
apparently it snowed today...but i havent even gone out to see it yet.
ive been cleaning the house.
i broke the toilet :/
(lol...i didnt know you couldnt flush the cleaning thing down the toilet...whoops)
so cliff is attempting to fix it.
(last time theyll let me clean the house! haha)
im going to target in a bit.
gotta buy a straightener to tame this wild beast of hair.
haha.
and some glue to fix my eyelashes.
for some reason when i got them tabbed, my right eye decided to be nice and none of them have fallen out...and then my left eye decided to be a bitch and theres like three left. haha looks pretty hott, ill tell you that ;)

at 1am i attempted to learn to drive.
figured itd be a good idea since theres pretty much no one outside at that time of night so i only had to look out for stray cats, orange cones (theres construction all over olson rd.) and mail boxes.
not too difficult.

i didnt die.
so i guess i will keep trying to learn.
i mean..im 19...its about time right?
and i want a chrysler 300 so i can look all gangsta and whatnot yoo.

contridictions @ 2008-01-16T06:02:00

2008-01-16T14:03:06Z

i never really noticed that big of a difference in them before [sizewise]
crazinesss.

story of my life:

2008-01-14T22:13:39Z

I know that it is freezing, but I think we have to walk
I keep waving at the taxis, they keep turning their lights off
But Julie knows a party at some actor's West side loft
Supplies are endless in the evening by the morning they'll be gone

When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend
I'll get a coffee and the paper, have my own conversations
with the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection
The mask I polish in the evening by the morning looks like shit

And I know you have a heavy heart, I can feel it when we kiss
So many men stronger than me have thrown their backs out trying to lift it
But me I'm not a gamble, you can count on me to split
The love I sell you in the evening by the morning won't exist

You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you'll be right back
Well, it takes one to know one, kid, I think you've got it bad
But what's so easy in the evening by the morning's such a drag

I got a flask inside my pocket, we can share it on the train
And if you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same
We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain
But what was normal in the evening by the morning seems insane

And I'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of this
The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did
It's not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live
Cause what is simple in the moonlight by the morning never is

It was so simple in the moonlight now it's so complicated
It was so simple in the moonlight, so simple in the moonlight
So simple in the moonlight...

contridictions @ 2008-01-02T16:21:00

2008-01-03T00:21:16Z

i hate that no one understands.

and that im too weak to spell it out for them.

resolution

2008-01-01T10:43:11Z

soo i made a blog like march of last year so i could do the whole project 365...but of course after like a week i gave up on it.

so starting fresh i decided im just gonna do it once a week on here.

so be ready.
photo365(366 this year i guess) is now in play.

obsess...then question.

2007-12-28T03:18:25Z

joy tea is truely the best invention ever.
i mean..3 teas in one?!
amazing.
green, black and oolong tea.
awe how i love them all.

if i go home and see that nate has drank all of it i will have to murder him.
not too bright of me to leave it in the cupboard huh?

i cant wait to go home and spend all my money at forever21.
eeps.
newwwwww clothes.
holler

okay.
question.
XXI is forever21 right?
like i know its owned by the same people.
but is it the same store?
like could i use my f21 gift card at XXI?
because they have better clothes.
and theres sunglasses i want.
yeppp.
(they probably wont be there and ill be sad :/)

okay.
so.
figure that out and tell me :D

my baby died

2007-12-24T03:54:46Z

im sad.
lucky's dead.
apparently he got in a fight?
idk.
my dad buried him.
and then just told me about it just now.

its all his fault you know.

you can't have a cat live indoors for 8 years and then move it to a new house out in the middle of a city and expect everything to work out perfectly.

no more bullemic kitty.

books

2007-12-21T23:55:03Z

the sabotage cafe is a pretty interesting book.
im a little more than halfway through right now. its written in an interesting way. the mom tells the story about her daughter running away and living on the streets...but like the mom is a pschitzo so she thinks the voices are telling her where her daughter is and stuff.
but i think the story shes telling is really just about herself? idk we shall see. its interesting.

i was quite disapointed with sellevision :/ i only read like 50 pages and then was put off by the whole thing.
so boring.
its not a memoir like the other books by augusten burroughs so thats lame.
ill probably finish it one day when im hella bored and theres nothing better to do.

the third book is god is dead. ive only read like 5 pages of it so far but im definatey going to read the rest of it after the sabotage cafe. seems like an interesting concept for a book. mhm.

i have 1hr50mins left of cleaning to do til im out of debt to my mom.
lol.
fun fun fun.

:/

2007-12-16T01:43:59Z

contridictions @ 2007-12-12T19:42:00

2007-12-13T03:42:37Z

random people commented my hair today.
others just stared.

ohh well its gone.
i now have black hair with extensions.
woot.

i smell like smoke; hella:

2007-11-30T06:08:38Z

me and danielle went and played bingo tonight.
it was so intense omygosh!
like really?
i think im addicted for sure.
we didn't win anything though. damn hoes.
but those old people? they're hella insane, they have like computer things instead of the bingo papers//markers.
it's craziness and then it beeps when they get a bingo.
hardcore much?
ehh i'd never wanna play that way...takes all the fun out of it.
they stared at us like we were aliens it was quite funny.

apparently everyone who plays bingo is an avid chain smoker.
i was hellllla light headed and pretty close to passing out from all the smoke.
like. it was waaay thick.
and now i smell really bad. lol ohh well.

me and danielle are going back on tuesday night.
apparently there's late night bingo 10pm-3am.
i'm pumped. yep.
i mean, how many old people do you know that stay up til 3am?
uhhhh none.
ahh pretty sure i'm dying of cancer tonight.
holler.

contridictions @ 2007-11-29T03:07:00

2007-11-29T11:12:59Z

tonight was exciting.
i finally got to hang out with liz at her and brandon's new apartment :D
i learned how to use the video mode on my phone so that was kind of exciting.
[except someone said something that shouldn't have been said...so pretty much i cant post it lol]
ohhh well.

brandon videod our conversation for 10 minutes. it was quite intense, it covered everything from losing our virginities to mike tomlinson [which of course have nothing in common lol]
i will post it one day and the world can see the ish we all talk about.

i realized that i've gotten a lot chubbier in the last few months. but ohh well.
[i'm saying this as i'm eating a bowl of cheerios...haha ahh fuck me.]

sydney informed me that we're supposed to get 4 inches of snow this weekend, kinda pumped for that :D
and stephanie actually invited me to her party on saturday...which means i'm no longer hated for sure ;]

uhh it's 3:11 am, i need to be up in a few hours and i still have a speech to write.
blah.
i'm not down with the whole school thing anymore.

contridictions @ 2007-11-28T15:09:00

2007-11-28T23:09:33Z

i really need to do laundry.
ahhh the laundry room is too cold :[

contridictions @ 2007-11-15T14:16:00

2007-11-15T22:20:19Z

i'm running away to beaverton to live with me mum.

lalaladeda.

the funny thing is...my dad won't even notice.

badadedum.

so, i'll be back saturday night at the latest.

lol.